Serial Experiment: Lain and admitting that I don't understand

I've watched Lain couple of times and watched explaining youtube videos and after all that I'm finally proud to admit that I don't understand shit

like i understand some of the symbolism and the main message but OH MY GOD this is complicated all around

in my 29 years on that planet i was on a race to understand and solve everything but now I _proudly_ let go and let things be, and maybe that's the main part of that all genre (also Evangelion is in that genre for me) of deeply physiological themes and messages that are there and thats okay not to fully grasp them and just LET THINGS BE

it was really hard for me to just let things be but i start to implement that in my day to day life and apparently that was one of my best decisions,

The State Of Surrender and Death of the Ego

and it seems to be what that series is all about? maybe I'll never now

And thats ok